all time favorite songs

these are my top 20 songs of all time. since i've learned to love music these are the ones that have stayed.

1. Harvey danger- Private Helicopter
2. INXS- Beautiful Girl
3. Neil Young- Harvest Moon
4. Rival Schools- Good things
5. Ash- Burn Baby Burn
6. Mazzy Star- Bells Ring
7. Modest Mouse- The View
8. Violent Femmes- Blister in the Sun
9. Peter Bjorn & John- Paris 2004
10. Pinback- loro
11. Talking Heads- And she was
12. Saves the Day- A Drag in D Flat
13. Drama Rama- Anything
14. Pete Yorn- For Nancy
15. Polaris- Hey Sandy
16. Alkaline Trio- Goodbye Forever
17. Bright Eyes- First Day of my Life
18. The Appleseed Cast- Fishing the Sky
19. Shout Out Louds- Normandie
20. The Cure- Mint Car

summer shouldnt have to end

"that's the way it goes, but don't forget, it goes the other way too."

summer was something else. i feel like it was off to a dull start with doing routine things and hanging out for the sake of hanging out. i really think august was the most pivotal month of my life. i finally went out of the country. i even got to see the sunrise in paris. i even learned how to appreciate here more. one of the greatest moments for me was the top of this mountain. i could see all of Barcelona. one of the worst moments for me was having my credit card eaten in an ATM machine in the Barcelona airport.

i feel so happy because ive built some good friendships this summer. i did alot of really cool things that i could brag about all day. im sad its over. schools comically boring so far. its been one week. im happy to get back into routine but angry about all the free time ive lost, plus the starter in my car broke. hows a girl supposed to get to school? we took a nice/poorly planned beach trip last weekend. we ended up sleeping in van, then finishing our rest on the beach for a good 7 hours. my back is killing me and i think i gained 6lbs but i had a great time.
im really living on the edge right now. i havent purchased any books, or a parking permit. ive been sneaking through my classes and hiding my borrowed car. i am a wild woman.
im back to my old self. watching 90s movies with john. not sleeping. stealing music. and makings lists.

things i need to do:
1. get credit
2. give brent about $350
3. move in with abbey
4. convince my mom im not a lesbian
5. buckle down
6. make a few doctors visits before i get dropped from insurance
7. get rid of my dingle berry of a car

i am accomplished.

I feel like these last 2 weeks have really been summer. finally lived the great ocean city dream of pool hopping on the boardwalk. booked a flight to spain, flew a glider above perkasie, completed my summer job, ive just been having an exceptionally good time with my friends.

im making things happen and im proud of it. im getting ready to embark on my next adventure to spain with brent. im really excited to gain some experience in my life. this glider was the first aircraft ive ever been on, so im stoked to spend 11 hours on a plane. my dad thinks i'll get cavity searched and my mom thinks i will be stolen/raped. heres to hoping this isnt a "told ya so" situation.

Newer goals:

1. start going to the movies alone.

2. hot air balloon.

3. master sign language

4. invent something

5. sign up for a game show/ get on a game show

6.find apartment

7. plan a trip to norway or alaska for winter break

8. finish project before october

9. vespa

10. get alot of money.

everyone thinks their lives are romantic comedies. i wouldnt watch any of them.

Ive been out of my teen years for nearly a week now. all i gotta say is, if one more person tells me this will be the longest year of my life, heads are going to roll. the only reason i look forward to 21 is the better opportunities to gain a massive gambling problem.

im running out of summer to figure things out.

i find it funny

the things we invent to get mad at each other about. stop thinking so much and pick your battles.

if i could give one universal piece of advice to all. it would be that. see the big picture and stop bitching so much and sabotaging your relationships over a petty personal problem.


likes:
practicing stone skipping
the sound peppermint patties make when you tear them
waking up to thunderstorms
moon shoes

dislikes:
the feel of velvet
nicknames
loud eaters
health food snobs

can i just say

i am so ridiculously happy to be done school.
im worried about money. who isn't?
i have a new puppy named wilson
im enjoying being with my friends a lot.
i will be twenty next month and that sucks.
i think everyone is crazy but me.

my top movies right now. in no particular order...

1. beautiful girls
2. this is england
3. big fish
4. wonder boys
5. amelie
6. one flew over the cuckoos nest
7. the dangerous lives of alter boys
8. kill bill (vol 1)
9. rocket science
10. angus

these are the movies on my mind right now. i was originally going to make my top 10 favorites of all time but that was too hard. watch these ones. i might be the only person in PA with angus.

i am a really goofy chick. whoops.


about a half hour ago i got pulled over for "swerving over lines". i think they thought i was drunk because the cop called for back up. i really wasn't doing anything at all, they were just bored. stupid perkasie. 1:30 on a Wednesday night, i guess i get it. anyway i just got a verbal warning and the cop was super nice to me. i got 60 dollars worth of parking tickets in a week too, i should be more careful.

my friend john thinks my blog isnt complex enough, truthfully i only have one cause i really like making lists and organizing my thoughts, even though im not very deep. so on that note...

Things making me happy
this super renegade pair of sunglasses i found
i'm realizing how self aware i am
my new coconut lime candle
i lost my ipod and someone returned it to me, so humanity.
Utorrents
no hard feelings (with a small exception)
i re-own wet hot american summer
25 dollar wawa gift card

I can't wait for summer.

College is so dumb. I'm still working on a get-rich-quick scheme. I finally had one, my plan backfired once my car decided to break. If I could win the lottery or win an amazing lawsuit, I would just drop out and do about a million fun odd jobs that I can quit any time I want and didn't have to waste my time and money in college. I really like what I'm doing with myself now. Recaping on my adventures so far this year has made me really content with how I live. Life would be so awesome if it weren't for school and work getting in the way.

Goals for summer:
stay awake for 3 days
drink more water
save up alot of money just in case
decide on a new major
purchase and ride red bicycle
make it to 20
camp all the time
avoid skin cancer

Ps. that picture is me and rebecca sleeping at lake nockamixon after staying up all night for brents triathlon. summer rules

i need to be smarter. i wish i could jump to 10 years from now so i can know what decisions i need to be making today. i have been happy and content for so long and i feel like im crashing. i knew this would happen.schools broken my spirit and i feel extremely confused. i really need to stop being such a stupid girl. i should probably stay away from boys until the end of time. i should actually let myself have feelings for someone or just become a lesbian. (elisa<3). im tired of basing my day around driving 45 minutes to a school full of people that make me uncomfortable. i hate that being generous is a punishment. i cant sort out my head. too much going on. i cant make everyone happy. i cant possibly make myself "okay" with everyone before its too late. i dont like bitching this much but the last 24 hours has been pretty fucked up.