i need to grow a backbone.

im so mad at myself.

insomnia

its so cold out. it makes me so happy except my room is always colder than it is outside. which makes it hard for me to stay asleep. i also cant sleep because everyone likes to text me every morning before my alarm goes off, and wakes me up (if im actually asleep in the first place). and finally, i cant stay asleep because of the caffeine i have to drink to make up for not being able to sleep.

halloweens coming up soon. the one night of a year you can look like the biggest asshole alive and its ok. its funny how holidays are created to make certain behaviors acceptable for a night. like going door to door and making strangers give you treats. disregarding everything your parents ever taught you.encouraging your children to sit on a fat mans lap and tell him what you want from his sack. pretending a pastel crazed bunny is sneaking into your house and leaving you presents (and not shit). im pretty sure saint patricks day has no purpose. we've lost site about what these holidays are about, but if we were aware of what its all about. then we wouldnt be celebrating. which is why i love thanksgiving, theres nothing wrong with being appreciative. aside from the genocide of the indians.

ever notice...
every time ive ever been in a public bathroom, theres always a mom in there with like 4 kids. i dont mind, i understand shes busy and clearly overwhelmed. but i just dont think there is anything more uncomfortable than hearing a woman in the stall next to you say, "mommys going tinkles".

how do we get ourselves into these things?

the other day i was giving blood. wasnt my first time. wasnt nervous. the volunteer, nikkhea, while checking up on me tells me shes afraid of needles. i asked her if she was uncomfortable with her job and she said no. i cant make sense of that.
later that night while trying to sleep (around 1 am.) i heard a rushing water sound. so naturally, i assumed rain. it sounded like a monsoon so i figured it cant be. i looked out my window only to see the fire hydrant across the street pouring water everywhere. i cant make sense of that either.

alot of people came home for the weekend. it was really fun i got to see abbey, cheryl, and shea.while taking abbey back to the train station saturday morning we accidently went to a parade. it was silly. im very content with the way this weekend was.


i bought turbonegro- never is forever for 50 cents. i rule!

pet peeves

1. cropped all over patterned hoodies with short sleeves.- these "hoodies" are eyesores and theyre extremely impractical. if youre going to wear a sweatshirt...wear a sweatshirt.


2. yellow hummers- as if people didnt notice your car takes up two lanes, you make it yellow just in case someone didnt happen to catch how cool you are.


3. meatloaf-you're a culinary abortion.


4.politics as a trend- spending 30 dollars for an urban outfitters tshirt that says "obama for yo mama" doesnt make you political. asshole.


5. animae- ...that shit is so weird.

6. men who wear crocs- i dont think theres anything more square in the world than crocs, which are just gardening shoes on steroids. when i see a guy in crocs i just assume that he is a pedophile. i dont know why.


7. marissa tomei.


8. birthday countdowns- i just dont know what people expect me to say when they tell give me the status of their birthdays. congratulations, you were born just like every other person alive.


9. people who are still scene-for those of you who still think dying your hair black with that unisex cut that hides your whole face/ not eating and wearing skin tight clothing for your "artistic" photo shoots is still cool. its not. i cant tell what gender you are. you look like a vampire. your parents definitely think you are gay. you all will be very embarrassed one day.


10. borat impressions- possibly lamer than the austin powers impressions. borat isnt funny to begin with. if you have to depend on that shitty character to get a cheap laugh out of everyone, then you probably suck.